web projects

Despite of all the troubles in my life i am gladly saying that i have worked properly… I have finished one project with kelly which is called jambisyoso site… It’s a blog site for a certain person name james… I am so happy and blessed that i have met kelly, atleast i have something to be busy at and its really rewarding, not just the money i gained but most importantly the experienced that i get in doing it… By the way this is the second project i had with kelly, the first is canada mortgage… when he first offer me this job i was really hesistant but through kelly’s encouraging words i was convinced to… and it pays off, i enjoyed it… Thanks to kelly, that he actually trust my gift as a programmer… I am looking forward to have a lot of projects with him….

And despite of all the loneliness i gladly say that i was able to reprogram the cms of htbc website… It’s wonderful isn’t it…

insecurities

“I am too insecure that’s why the devil plays in my mind”…

Insecurities produces worries, pain, suffering and etc…it never bring good things in our lives.. Its a trash that we need to throw… a thought that we shouldn’t linger on… 

That so-called insecurities is slowly killing me … It’s hard to fight it but i need to… 

Boredome

Some says work is hard to find especially at this time of crisis that’s why i keep on fighting my boredome daily. It wasn’t easy but its something that i am required to do due to a lot of complications in my life. This job is so important to make me live but why i still get bored. Probably because i’m idle most of the time, i dont like to be toxic but i dont like to be idle either for a long period of time or maybe because some of my work doesn’t fit me, i am not good in preparing reports, i am only into programming , though reports comes seldomly but still i feel as if i will always screwed up  whenever i do those things, hayzzz

Ofcourse i still have the will to love and enjoy this work after all this is God’s blessing. I remember I ask the Lord before to give me the work that I wanted since i step in college and enroll for BSCS. Though my expectations are not all met, still i would say this work cultivated me alot and help me discover what i can do and what skills God has given me. The skills that i treasured and i believed can still be expanded through experience and God’s grace .  But will i get that experience here? i hope so and i f not i hope God directs me into where i belong, to a place where i can maximize my skills, where i can be useful and can sustain the way of living that i dream of.

 I’m still waiting, deciding, thinking, measuring and praying for the next step.But definitely i have to do the next step that’s on my mind right now…

immeasurable

so much happiness that finally i came to a point of being atpeace. it’s a nice feeling that i dont store garbages on my mind… i may say i have reach a certain level of maturity in terms of handling my emotions…

Contentment, acceptance and faith are the keys that i am holding on right now to maintain that kind of peace and happiness… And it’s a great feeling… i dont wanna drop it but hold it till the end… No way to return in the days of wondering and wandering…

Focusing towards the one you love is more important rather than focusing on what’s gonna happen… Its nice to be happy rather than worry… It’s nice to feel the love no matter how intense or not so intense than not feel it at all…